Fly me to the MOON!!

Constance you better be able to play the bass like that by Sat! haha.. these guys were from ac I think, the guitarist is just SO charming. :)

Oei! You 2 should be grateful that I'm a considerate photographer, I took the best sides of both of you! (unlike st0opid cons) -__- Very fun right, take stupid pictures of me and laugh your head off, aiyo call yourselves sisters! *pouts* haha

Lelong!! Lelong!! Anybody wants them? Buy 1 get 1 free!!

Angry + Stress = Angst

It's been a terrible, terrible week. One so draining and sickening that I never ever want to go through it again. As much as I oppose to emo posts because they're selfish and inconsiderate to the reading audience, I can't tahan holding all this in and desperately seek an outlet. As siyi would say, it's my blog and my decision. So allow me to declare this: THIS IS GOING TO BE EMO

I've never felt such screwed up emotions before, I had such a sleepless night thinking about what exactly I'm experiencing and why I'm acting this way. I'm not going to bother with the whole background info because it tires me and I don't even know myself what the background info is. My mind is in such a flurry because of all the bombardment my mind goes through each day, GP essay outlines, analysing artcles, recalling info about atoms and molecules while resolving forces on free-body diagrams, I feel exhausted. Plus the fact that I'm anal in the sense that I need to justify matters before I can let them rest, resulting in me spending time thinking, why is it such? what's the root of all this? I'm quite a fan of causal theory, but not as absolute as the theory itself. I concluded a few things yesterday

-Unlike most who express their disatisfaction at that particular point in time, I prefer to remain calm and empathise with my antagoniser. However my habit of bottling everything in and not getting pissed at the moment has become natural, until I get back home and realise, wth did I take that shit for?? Then I burst and therefore there's a lag in my pissed-off-ness which spillsover to the next day.
-I'm behaving in such a selfish and inconsiderate manner to some because I'm just so sick of always being nice and giving in. give and give and give...wth
-pms is probably the reason why I'm so cranky all the time. The stuffy weather doesn't make it any better.
-There are 40 days there abouts to the A levels, and I'm thoroughly disatisfied with myself.
-I'm pissed but no longer can express it the way I used to be able to. I don't know why, I just lost that skill. Which is emotional constipation, seriously.
-I'm so freaking stressed that even though my face/actions may not say it at times, my body automatically does and I begin clenching. My jaw has been aching like hell and I probably drove my teeth in by another couple of millimetres.
-I'm exhausted cos I don't sleep well even though I sleep enough.
-Everything's just so sickening because once you start your train of thought its difficult to stop. I think I've been reading too many psychology related things. Argh

Grrr...

But of course there're always the good times, I really have to thank mings, for wearing my warm smelly sports shoes and lending me her court shoes yesterday, for tahaning my whining when I'm hot and sticky, for mugging and pushing me to mug, and for just making the week seem not that bad after all. :) And chio chio who's ridiculous camwhoring is hilarious!!

And of course all the other victims who've experienced my crankiness through the week, haha, poor intimidated oily.

Gimme a week and hopefully everything gets better

Wriggling Yellow Stuff

I officially am averse to unknown, mushy yellow stuff. Not too long ago, as some of you might have heard, I had the unfortunate experience of discovering a maggot in my over-over-ripe banana. I was peeling the banana's skin when I saw it's bruise, upon closer examination, I noticed that the bruise was moving. It didn't take me long to realise what THAT meant.

Today was a horror story, my sister had been smelling something bad in the kitchen and pulled her guts together to open the kitchen cupboard. There lay an intimidating scene... a covered kuali (you know that think to char kuay teow) SO what lay inside the kuali that was so revolting? There sat a metal container of yellow goo, with funny stuff around it. Here's the best part, IT WAS MOVING. There were freaking maggots in there!! The slop was alive!

I'm not going to cook or step into the kitchen as much as I can for the next few weeks at least~

And I definitely wont be eating bananas or corn

I had a good day in school but a bad one outside. Grrr...

My mum just took me to look at some 2.2 million dollar apartment at Melrose near her office. No we aren't moving there and neither are we close to even buying something that exhorbitantly priced. Honestly I think that place is a rip off. The master bedroom is about the same as ours, which is puny if you don't know and the overall lighting of the place is just bad.

yay, pizza in the office :)

Caffine - Best discovery ever

Tell tale signs that I have just had a cup of coffee not too long ago.:

When I'm doing work/in lecture

-I'm conscientiously doing my work, so absorbed that I enter my own world of calculus and complex numbers
-I look at the lecturer and ACTUALLY copy what she's writing while listening
-I cross my legs and begin looking at the clock every 30 seconds with a look of great distress, this is normally accompanied by me whining to my neighbour that I need to pee.. Desperately.

During a break

- I talk a lot and at increasingly fast speeds
- I seem interested in whatever the topic at hand is even if it may be about something as unintersting as floor tiles
- I'm very smiley and hyper
- I need to pee.
In the car/ late at night

- I talk to my family about any and every single thing I can think of, which I normally don't because I'm too tired to talk in the car.
- I attempt to harmonise (note:attempt) with every single song that plays on the radio, much to my mother's annoyance who insists that I sound like an animal.
- My voice gets a couple of tones higher and I speak at a much much faster rate
- I need to pee

Fellowship of the chocolates!!

Here's a quick one for you, how many different coloured M&Ms do you reckon there are? 6? 10? 15? Now brace yourself for the fellowship of the (M&M) ring!!

TA-DA!

My sister's extremely intelligent friend, the one who managed his Master's thesis in 3 days instead of the given 3 months and still got an A+ and whom has now recently returned from the States with the most intriguing 'souvenir' I've ever recieved in a looong time, (hence pushing his IQ up by a few more points in my books!) :) got me what I would like to call, a set of M&Ms. There are 18 freaking colours in that box man!!!

'Very thrilling meh?" you may ask.

I'll call you a boring bunch of sour grapes because all you have are your 6 coloured M&Ms (blue, brown, yellow, red, green). Bleagh to you! I think my sister thought I had completely lost it or that I was really a bimbo at heart when I got all hyper about getting 18 colours, I mean seriously, 18 colours! That's like way WAY too much food colouring! Hey I think I should bring them to school one day and test the guys to see if they were colour blind, I bet XW would only see 3 colours.! Anywyas, thanks Lionel! Sorry I didn't get to thank you personally in church, but I thought an entire post devoted to you/your M&Ms would be better. haha.. Hey, this picture has made it as the wallpaper of my phone ok, and as most of you would know, the only few photos I would shuffle as my wallpaper would be that of my darling guitar and my AC school badge. And of course not to forget that of Chio's.

=)

Pixar is hilarious!!

Take a break from all that studying and take a look at these!!

I totally adore this one!







This one has a nice ending





And my all time favourite from ages ago

The Ultimatums

Here's my mum's attempt of a face lift! She was complaining how her side of the family apparently had genetically droopy eyes and hence proceeded her attempt to un-droopify them. Haha!! I went on to tell her that she was pointing her middle fingers! I love my mum, I think she's the funkiest 60 year old mum ever with the craziest ideas in her head. (That's why her daughters like that mah...)

In my eyes, she has the empathy level akin to that of Mother Teresa, a tolerance level higher than that of the Hoover Dam's and the patience of a sloth waiting for another sloth to come from the next tree. (In case you don't get this metaphor, sloths are freaking ridiculously slow). Should a taxi inconsiderately and dangerously cut into our lane, she says,

' Aiya, let them cut la, they've been driving the whole day, and they need to make money also what..'

My gosh, she's the Florence Nightingale of all taxi drivers. Perhaps it's also because she barely hits 60 on a highway, HIGHWAY leh... No wonder every Tom, Harry, Ah Seng and Ah Huat want to cut our lane. Plus, she's so full of nonsense, (we can get obscenely crude when the 3 of us come together) coming up with an alternative for 'luncheon meat' that kinda makes your stomach turn at the first mention of it. (haha.. chio would know) She makes up 2 parents, no, allow me to correct myself, she's makes up WAY more than 2 parents. Without her we'd probably be selling tao huay at Geylang by now whilst giving out flyers concurrently.

My nonsense sister pretending that she's conjoined to my mother's shoulder.... act cute lor.. haha.. Honestly, we're a family of capable women, that's what you get when you have a useless man around. But it's good training I reckon. =)

Singapore.. Again,

Scenes you would probably only get in places such as Singapore:

All right this is probably a common sight in places such as China too.

I really like this one, it's a classic table-choping-tissue scene. And this was really the table next to me at the Marina foodcourt!

My all time favourite theatrical performers! Emma Yong should have sung for Forbidden City in the first place.

Another worth-while production by Singapore's Performing Arts! I had a great prolonged weekend spending time with all the important people in my life (namely family). Watching Singapopera simply took my breath away, there came a point during th show where I found myself grinning so much that my cheeks really hurt. Singapopera was basically a feature of many of our local musicals dating 20 years back from Beauty World. Honestly, they should have just turned it into the NDP to make it all worthwhile. The Singapore Pop Orchestra, recently started by Dick Lee, was extremely impressive. He formed it in view of integrating the cultural instruments and diversifying the ways in which music is often played. The conductor/musical director Sydney Tan actually got the Sitar to play a Cheena song la! But it was reeallly good!! My sister and I have decided to set up a seperate blog to talk about theatre programmes we've gone for! Wait for it! =)

I need to teach my sister AP/GP, sooo... family photo to end off! we actually cam-whored in teh toilet because we all happened to wear green to church today!

Some one told me to write this on my blog, XIANGWEI IS A NICE PERSON. So while I'm at it, Mings just got the friend of lion (Singa) Award! All the time spent on the disobedient class has finally paid off!

Finally the exams are over, I'm glad to say they are and yet sad at the same time. Generally speaking, I enjoy exam periods because my brain takes a rest and doesn't do an ounce of studying apart from the few hours before the paper. This means that should I have a morning paper and another the next afternoon, the entire day will be spent sleeping, watching tv or just plain slacking. But after 2 weeks of doing so, I started getting bored and restless, which means that I started getting emo as well as my interactions with humans depleted. Exam periods are always as such, you go for your paper, sit in the freezing cold for a couple of hours holding your pee after which you pee, complain about the paper for about 5 minutes or for as long as it gets youto the school gate, and then you go home. At least that's it for me. Luckily my sister has been home most of the time, or else I would have just died of lonliness/not-talking-ness.

It came to my attention this year that I'm much much more reliant on human interactions than I thought I was, and I also realised the averse effects it has on me when I don't mix with people.
Oh well... =)

Ever heard EIC's rendtition of a song for/about Fiona Xie? It's damn funny if you catch all the jokes!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=if4XoBaZYP0

Idealism

After several bimbotic posts, I shall revert to something which actually reflects the blog address, haha... And can you people stop scandalising my life! Go laugh at the picture of the hairbrush or tissue paper instead can, =P

Anyways, I wouldn't consider myself a cynic of love and relationships. I do believe that love, relationships and all that shit (see the irony) can happen and does happen. However, what I am critical about is the prediction of relationships and feelings. It seems to me that people tend to idealise relationships (in this case those between couples) and assume that everything will remain that way once everything is fine and dandy. Often enough, it also seems to be the guys who have this mentality. They have this perfect envisionment of the future with their partners whether it be several months or several years away which may however not necessarily be the case all the time. Yes, happy-ever-ending stories can and do happen, but one has to realise the fact that we are constantly being shaped and tweaked by the society we grow up in whether of not this be conscious or sub-consciously.

Man often has this egotistical presumption that we are unimpressionable by our surroundings, but the actual fact is, we are constantly bombarded by things which shape and re-shape our ideals and mould our principles. Even if we Christians were to say that we stand by the Bible, in all honesty, how infallable are we? The point here is that nothing can ever remain the same forever, especially when you talk about human relationships. Why do you think Cheena philosophers often liken our lives to ever-flowing, luohan populated rivers? We are likewise, never constant and in fact, the most fickle creatures on this planet. (Xw's just exceptionally fickle! =P) What you experience in a relationship now may not necessarily be so 5 years or even 5 months down the road. Unlike what we think, we are actually extremely vulnerable creatures who are susceptable to something as small as a newspaper review introducing a new idea into our heads. I've recently come across several people who seem to just copy their current state and paste it in the frame of what they call the future, thinking that yea, we'll get married, have 5 children and a dog (not directed at anyone =) I have to admit, relationships are the most unpredictable things, and sometimes signing your name on that certificate isn't a 100% guarantee of a life-time of happiness, it's a contract, a bond, and some people choose to have no qualms as to breaking them. I wouldn't call this being cynical or critical, I'm simply being realistic and honest. You think you'll definitely marry the person you're with now or whoever it is you'll be with in the future? Not unless you make it happen, because it's easy to just drop everything and go once things change. And being with one for more than 5 years doesn't mean anything either, I've seen plenty of long looong term relationships end just as easily.

Well, it's just what I've been thinking about with all the on-goings around me. Note: AROUND not WITH ok. Have a happy week people!

By the way, look at the size of my CPU! HAHAHA!!

Completion! =)

Thank you dears!! I had lots to say but unfortunately the mood has past and the lousy papers I've had throughout the week doesn't make me any more verbal. So allow the pictures to talk! Allow me first to give credit to the wonderful girls feifei, ping and yee! I have no idea what I'd do without you guys, serious! First and foremost, I know this is an extremely common and over shown photo-donuts from the donut factory (which doesn't seem to function like as a very efficient one considering the constant queues) I mean, why don't you just mass produce with larger ovens? Anyways back to the point, yee can me my sugar mummy! She actually lined up for over an hour to get these for us!! SO damn nice la!!! :D:D ( Her as well as the donuts) My goodness, I wouldn't line up and buy donuts for anyone unless I really really found it worthwhile (meaning you're very very close to me)

Look! Fei and Ping got me my VERY OWN BMW! haha... (substitute of Lamborghini)

Chio right, haha.. I think I make a pretty good toy car photographer :D And look!!

AAEee!!! :D:D My all time favourites

Screams again!

Haha, apart from that, here are some funny things I have, remember our new national symbol of table reserving tissue packets? Here's the ultimate my sister got for me :

And this is printed on the back of a hairbrush!

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Hilarious!

Thanks, you guys know me best. ;)

New Computer!!

I couldn't tahan, I had to blog about this, I have a new computer with not one, but TWO swanking processers!! I bet the previous one had half a processor because it was so retardly slow. Retarded in this context is really apt.

It's a Dell Inspiron! The monitor is so big I feel cock-eyed already! And my desktop is damn cool!! Wheee!!!! Yay!!! Gone are the days where I can turn on the computer, cook maggi mee and come back to a blank screen as the internet explorer loads the screen. Now I just click and everything pops up as if it were pre-loaded. Wha.. kinda like instant pre-mix, ^v^ And the speakers just rock! My CPU is the less than half the size of a normal CPU, damn sexy! REally!!!

Yay!! I'm so excited I can barely construct proper sentences now!

And it's Windows vista, meaning that both the hardware and software of this fantastic contraption rocks in all areas! :D

No one can laugh at my computer anymore! muahaha!

Here's a scary thought for you- I actually kinda enjoy Physics exams!
*Blood curdling scream+scary Psycho 'cheng! cheng!' music playing in the background.*

Ok I don't blame you if you didn't fully comprehend and visualise the second statement, it's something so retarded that probably only my sister and I can get it, haha..

Anyways I doubt that I'll be updating for the following weeks, it's a bid to stay glued to the books and not the screen, so much for effort eh, bah.

I feel extremely sian, not emo ok, sian. There's a negative connotation to emo, but just one of laziness in sian. wth am I saying, bleah.. wrote too much for GP already, and will probably still fail as always, what a loser I am.

Yoda: Loser, I am.

I watched King and I on Sunday!! my gosh I've never seen such chiseled abs before. I bet bush could have as many wars as I he wanted if he had abs like those and displayed them at every public speech.

stupid fairy and oily, mass of fluttering oil!! stop defaming me on my tagboard!!

Singapore!

The fireworks yesterday were completely overwhelming and fantastic! All right, I know they were nothing compared to the recent Festival of Fireworks, but to someone who hasn't had a good view of fireworks ever since her primary school days, watching fireworks explode a few hundred metres away(all right maybe more) is way better than seeing them pop pathetically on a TV screen. So what if I was blocked by the roof of the food court or had the lights reflecting off the windows into my face, the view was great and being able to enjoy it in the comfort of the air-conditioned food court just rocked. Somehow the enjoyment level of everything is elevated when you're comfortable and others are standing and squeezing in the heat outside. (muahaha)

However, what really completed the mood of National Day was the sight of Singaporeans gathering in their typical Kiasu fashion, looking awe-struck at every single plane, spark or birdthat appeared in the skyline as if they were aliens. Some may scoff our 'Swaku-ness' and jeer at the uncouth and uncultured behaviour of many, and as much as I do not condone that, it is this blatant honesty and unabashed attitude we all portray that makes everything feel like home.

I love the children who screamed with each pop of the fireworks (even though there wasn't much to scream about)
I love the way we all WAH-ed unglamly with each burst of light.
I love the auntie behind us who kept saying 'hip siong! hip siong!' (take photo! take photo!)
I love the way everyone would shout in excitement point each time there was a slight movement in the sky (which looked pretty amusing!)
I love the way people so shamelessly reserve tables with their puny tissue packets (Some would have seen my tissue packet which says 'Chope' on the front, I'll take a picture next time!)
I love our retardedly absurd lingo, terms like:

I Chope!
Must kiap the paper leh.
Why you kop my fishball!
He's damn imba la! ( I recently discovered it's coined from 'imbalance')

Haha...I love this country!

Poor Dhabs!

I was intending to blog only after I had more free time, but seeing Dhab being so emo, I feel compelled to cheer her up! It's difficult when someone is miles away, even with technology shrinking our world day by day and making the world 'flatter' than it already is. Dhab don't worry ok, (I'm working on my my mum letting me go over for a few days to stay with you!) To a certain extent I hope the market will still be a bit hot so that I can go over on my own *Smiles*. Don't ever lose your happy disposure Dhab because that is what makes you the person everyone wants to have around all the time. Happiness rubs off onto people, and so does your perpetual inaness! :D (lurve that word! heh.) So don't lose your trump ok? Remain as optimistic as ever, as silly and lively and bouncy (fishball) as ever and as great a friend eveR!! You should have left your camera behind for us to take photos with! :P Now we're stuck with ancient ones!!

Argh! tired. macroecons macroecons and more macroecons

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spasm

Emo leh...

Honestly I still don't see how you can't accept things the way they are. It's frustrating and very very draining, so much so that my weekends are always ruined. Everyone makes mistakes because that's how were were made, the difference between us and others is that we know that for a fact and we're supposed to accept others for that particular shortcoming and not condemn or judge them. I'm being very frank to admit that yes, I am annoyed, and that rarely occurs with me. I don't know what to do already la.